Face to Face with Crippling Performance Anxiety (Zach’s Backstory)

Posted by on Sep 26, 2018

Face to Face with Crippling Performance Anxiety (Zach’s Backstory)

“God, please… just help me.” I could feel the thin, industrial grade carpet even through the knees of my jeans, and it felt worse against the bare skin of my palms – raspy and unforgiving. I was kneeling by myself in the deserted upper hallway of a lecture building at Northwestern University and actually physically shaking.  Badly. I had been shaking uncontrollably all day – through...

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We Had No Idea How Much This Would Affect Us…

Posted by on Aug 16, 2018

We Had No Idea How Much This Would Affect Us…

Several weeks ago, I woke up in a dark hotel room on the small island of San Pedro Belize. The sun had just risen above the horizon, but the fiercely vibrating window-mounted air conditioner was already showing signs of losing its battle with the 100 degree heat and 95% humidity outside. It was Monday morning – Saturday we had finished a show in Western Iowa, driven several hours to the...

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A Crisis of Conscience in Jerusalem

Posted by on Mar 29, 2018

A Crisis of Conscience in Jerusalem

I was doing everything in my power to appear calm, collected, and confident. But internally I was fighting a war. We were minutes away from taking the stage in the heart of Jerusalem for an historic collaboration between the Christian and Orthodox Jewish communities, and I was deeply conflicted. Not about the collaboration – that was the thrilling part.  Gifted speakers and musicians had...

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Happy New Year! 2017 By The Numbers

Posted by on Jan 4, 2018

Happy New Year!  2017 By The Numbers

“It’s been awesome – people are saying yes to JESUS out here!” I was on the phone, talking excitedly to one of my closest friends back home in Iowa – I had been traveling through Los Angeles with the band, breathing in the humid sea air, braving brutal interstate traffic with a trailer in tow, and watching God impact lives as we moved from one small venue to the...

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Beautiful Failure

Posted by on Oct 26, 2017

Beautiful Failure

I am writing this while hunched over my laptop, squinting at the screen in the passenger seat of a moving car. White Ribbon Day is heading to Côte d’Ivoire (or “Ivory Coast” for all of us non-French speakers out there.) The last few days have been a blur of last-minute scrambling, culminating in a frantic morning spent trying to replace a lost immunization card before our 11 AM departure...

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Coming Up Short in the American Heartland

Posted by on Oct 12, 2017

Coming Up Short in the American Heartland

“In just a minute I’m going to give you a chance to take a stand and say yes to Jesus.” The metal handle of the microphone felt cold in my hands as I squinted into the stadium lights – I had been pacing back-and-forth at the limits of the mic cord in front of a football field full of young people for the last 15 minutes, and usually at this point I would be feeling a strong...

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